i need more time

i want it so bad

I'm going to win this.
If not today, then tomorrow.
and if not tomorrow, the day after.. cause that's when the contest ends.

♥

so what if finals week is two weeks away...

I decided to make some sweet ass ornaments.

two words..

Monkey Pig


♥

i don't know what it is

but i can't seem to turn my brain off, ever..

and i think of bad things.... a lot..

i used to not mind it but lately it's been
driving
me
crazy.

it goes beyond worrying i think..

it's more like preparing myself for the worst..

of everything.. all the time.

i really don't like to think like that..
i'm not an unhappy person
i just can't help it..

i think i was oblivious to it for a while
but now when i catch myself doing it
i
stop
it.

it's weird to have to make yourself stop thinking
because you're not thinking about anything real
none of the bad things i think about have ever
happened.

i just think about them.
'what ifs'
i guess.

i'm sick of it.

i don't want to play anymore.

no more.
i'm done.
i'm not letting those things get in the way of my life.

♥ coffee and taquitos ♥

deep fried turkey and too much wine, good Thanksgiving.
I haven't done anything on this in a while, just been busy I guess.
School's almost done for the semester, which is weird.. I don't really feel like I've learned as much as I should have, not to say I haven't learned anything. My drawing abilities have definitely improved. I think I've going to take another drawing class next semester so I don't loose it again like I did after high school. This time it needs to stick.

fuck yea. creepy sculptures.

in 20 years this is going to be the most amazing coral reef ever.

ugh, i don't want to do anything today and i have to work at 3..
and it probably is going to be slow cause everyone has leftovers and are doing all their shopping this morning, not this evening.. lame.


i wonder if it lived or not.... or if it did if he could walk on all eight feet.. like those remote controlled cars that have wheels on the top and bottom so that it never stops rolling even though it flips over... yep, that's what i picture happening..

poor kid. thought it was a lollipop..

Totally been a movie junkie this year. Here's what new ones I've seen.... so far :)

My Bloody Valentine
Notorious
Paul Blart: Mall Cop
The Uninvited
He's Just not that Into You
Friday the 13th
Watchmen
Sunshine Cleaning
I Love You, Man
Martyrs
The Haunting in Connecticut
Observe and Report
17 Again
Crank High Voltage
X-Men Origins: Wolverine
Star Trek
Terminator Salvation
Drag Me to Hell
Up
Away We Go
The Hangover
Food Inc.
Year One
Transformers: Revenge of the Fallen
Bruno
Harry Potter and the Half-Blood Prince
Funny People
District 9
Inglourious Basterds
World's Greatest Dad
9
Pandorum
Paranormal Activity
Zombieland

And these are the movies that I plan on seeing...


Where the Wild Things Are
Whip It
Saw VI
Ong Bak 2: The Beginning
The Men Who Stare at Goats
The Fantastic Mr. Fox
Ninja Assassin
The Road
Sherlock Holmes

Yep, I think that's about it.
How many have you seen?
;)